Sometimes you tell yourself that the inner life doesn’t really matter and that, in any case, it will somehow take care of itself. However, not even you in your heart of hearts believe this. Such a feeling usually results from struggling to unite the internal and external realms, and a sense of having failed to do so. Inevitably, one is given precedence over the other but, of course, each is as important as the other.
You may be subject to bouts of fear, worry and depression which make you feel as if you do not have enough material resources to live a reasonable life. These emotions can make you miserly and stingy. Your concern that you may not have enough for that proverbial rainy day can take all the fun and enjoyment out of day-to-day existence. So you keep trying to build up your reserves as your fear grows. You lose your enthusiasm, your generosity and your faith. You cannot allow this to happen. All that you need will be yours if you simply have faith and set your sights on seeking the God within. “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you”. Remember and practice that and things will improve.